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Mar 3Liked by Amy Cowen

I thought the clown series was awesome and very relatable. I think the bird series must have been before I had discovered you or illustrateyourweek, but I went back to look at it and I think it's wonderful! I am always inspired by your posts!

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Thanks so much, Susan. I am glad you are part of this community of journalers now!

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Mar 3Liked by Amy Cowen

These clowns are fascinating to me! I like the series you created.

I don’t care for dystopian fiction anymore. It’s begun to feel too much like foreshadowing lately. My favorite of the genre is “alas, Babylon” by Pat Frank.

I will return to Sunday drawing next week & look forward to seeing you all.

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I totally get that perspective.... But thank you for the title mention! And we will be glad to see you back next weekend! Have a good week ahead. (I am LOVING your song lyric series, by the way. It's amazing to me how just seeing the words makes you "hear" them.)

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I have always loved dystopian fiction. My latest favorite is Station Eleven. The Handmaid’s Tale was a favorite of my youth, but I agree with Kiersten that the current situation makes it feel possible.

I’m definitely a Cirque du Soleil clown person.

My affirmation: I choose to be happy and love myself today

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I think I've talked (podcast) about Station Eleven a zillion times. It's definitely a long-time favorite of mine. Love this affirmation. Good for you! Make it so.

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Oh yes! Station Eleven! I had the misfortune of reading it during the Covid 19 lockdown. . . It was my first Emily St. John Mandel novel and I think I've since read everything else she's written. Complex stories.

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I’m no fan of clowns but love your drawings for some unknowable reason. Not knowing is part of the pleasure.

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Thanks so much, Rona! I really appreciate this comment and that you looked.... capturing people who somehow seem to speak to us is so much a part of it even, as you said, when we don't know why they reach out.

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Amy, do you know about the inflatable clowns created by Toronto artist Max Streicher? They're currently in Boston; the installation travels. His work is fascinating. https://www.axios.com/local/boston/2024/01/16/downtown-clown-heads-artist-max-streicher-interview

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I did not know about these, Rona! Thank you for sharing this.

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I take no issue with clowns and have trouble understanding why they are so off-putting to so many. Maybe the inability to read the face, which supports our tendency to want to make assessments about who stands before us? So, a lack of trust, at its roots? I will admit, though, that all clowns seem sad to me - even the ones who work to be funny. Hiding behind a painted on smile is unsettling for me. Hmmm, come to think of it, maybe that's where the aforementioned lack of trust comes from? All that to say, I like your clown series, but it may be that others don't quite know how to relate to it/them.

Though I've read some dystopian novels in my time, I seldom gravitate toward them and find I forget them. The one I remember best (not to be confused with a "favorite") is Animal Farm, but Ender's Game, The Giver, 1984 are all buried in my brain somewhere. I watched Hunger Games but never read the book. I do wonder, sometimes, if this whole Earth thing is really just a giant experiment run by other, more intelligent, beings. 😬

An affirmation I need this month: Trust that the right path will reveal itself.

Thanks, Amy!

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Thanks for thinking about the clowns, Elizabeth. I agree that clowns that are less overtly sad are often kind of scary. In truth, all clowns might be. These face paint people in plain clothes.... continue to strike me a bit differently. But there's a lot to it, for sure. Ender's Game is one from long ago for me, too. Huger Games, yes. To the "giant experiment" end of things, Emily St. John Mandel's Sea of Tranquility is a good short pick. But I hear you.... and others in this comment thread.... who see too much reality in them. Thank you for reading AND sharing an affirmation. That is a good one.... be looking for it.

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Ooh, Sea of Tranquility looks good. Evidently, it's a 10-week wait to get it in audio from my library, but I placed a hold on it and will see how it goes. Sometimes the timing doesn't work out, but can't hurt to try. :) Thanks!

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It’s not my favorite by her - but there are interesting questions along that line of thought, for sure.

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I always look forward to your illustrated journal pages! And these clown illustrations are wonderful and deeply fascinating!

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Thanks so much for looking and commenting, Jason. I really appreciate it!

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I just finished Cloud Cuckoo Land and it absolutely had a thread of dystopian future in it. It was beautiful, optimistic, and a wonderful love letter to librarianship and bibliophiles.

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Okay.... I have to read it soon, Lauren! I'm glad to hear you enjoyed it.

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Mar 3Liked by Amy Cowen

Favorite dystopian novel? The Hunger Games, all three books. (And all four movies. I am compelled to watch them whenever they are on TV.) Brilliant.

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Absolutely - good pick! I should do a rewatch, too. It’s been many years since we read the books, but I would enjoy a rewatch. Thanks for reading!

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I have been rewatching (slowly) in preparation for the 4th movie to make it to streaming.

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Mar 3Liked by Amy Cowen

Amy, thank you for helping me sort out how my writing has gone this last year. I’m always taking notes for thing to write about. I call them WAMs, for Write About Me. Your notes made me realize that I seldom draw on WAMs, because the Universe brings me something to write about every week. Each essay springs forth like Minerva from the head of Zeus, already fully formed.

I’ll still keep taking notes. Maybe there will come a time where what to write about doesn’t just appear. I keep track of poems and photos, too. But every week, enough stuff just comes up. I wonder if this happens to you, too?

Sorry, don’t read much dystopian fiction. Real times are dystopian enough for me. Save the giant insect for another day.

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Yes, Fran, I think it’s very much like that. Always having so much or too much to write about is a good problem to have, I would think. I bet some special moments get stuck in the WAM folder. Maybe they will find their way into the lineup some day.

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Mar 3Liked by Amy Cowen

I’ve always been fascinated by masks. It frustrated me that people close chose to wear different masks. Only showing the truly ugly to select few while everyone else got to see the diamond studded pretty masks.

After much soul searching, I realised I wear my own masks. Mine may not be ugly or fit for royalty, it still segues as my own protection against others.

As for the clowns. I have no problem with them. My other half HATES them. I came to the relationship with a porcelain clown. For years “Henry” the clown lived on the spare bed. Then he got relegated to the cupboard. So one day I’m at work and I take a phone call. “your stupid clown just jumped on me”

I was equal parts concerned (for Henry who ended up with stitches - aka glue) and hysterical 😂 Henry is long gone now his masked face was never quite the same after his misadventure 🤭

I love drawing face painted faces, I think they add an extra layer of difficulty to the portrait - your collection is fabulous!

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What a story about Henry! Wow! But to your point, I think the simple reality is there are always masks. Some just choose to wear them much more overtly. Thank you for commenting!

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I did my graduate thesis for my MFA on masks and what we show the world. Strange coincidence since I was diagnosed with adhd/autism at 50.

My experience has been that women of my generation (and older) are routinely taught to mask by their mothers and society (especially in the south). Breaking through that ill-fitting, and frankly dangerous, mask is a huge hurdle on my path to self discovery.

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Mar 8Liked by Amy Cowen

I loved your clown series, Amy!

“Your perspective is unique. It’s important and it counts.” -Glenn Close

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Thanks, Erin!

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Mar 10Liked by Amy Cowen

I’m late to the reading party this week! I love dystopian novels. I don’t read a ton of them regularly, and some of my favorites are mentioned above. I read Alas, Babylon in the 1980s—a suggestion from my mother.

When I was 3, I saw the circus in the same colosseum that my father graduated from college in one week later. Clowns made a big impression on me, apparently. When all the professors marched in with black gowns and colorful hoods, I yelled out, “Oooo, look at the clowns!” Which got a big laugh from everyone around us. This is the story I’ve been told all my life!

I think clowns were ruined for succeeding generations after Stephen King’s It came out. In 1980 I dressed as a clown for Halloween and no one was talking about being scared of clowns.

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lol. Jen - that family story about the graduation is too funny! I love that. You are probably right about the scary clowns. It’s ironic though that you did dress as a clown one year! Thanks for catching up here.

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